Its a Girl!!!

We are so excited that we are having another..boy or girl...but I will admit that I am so excited to have another little one to dress up and play dolls with. Hailey is very excited. We asked them what they wanted to name their little sister. Tavis of coarse said Kennedy (his favorite babysitter) and Hailey said "Cha Chi" well hate to break it to ya Hailey..but I think we'll have to come up with something else. They are both very excited! I knew it was a Girl but it's fun to be validated in those mommy intuitions I get. 4 months left..thats it. cant believe it. very excited and grateful!!

Love you all


Dusti

I like today...

Today is a good day. I couldn't sleep so my day started at 4am. Tavis was laying by me when I rolled out of bed finally at 5:30 and ran after me saying mom "don't go don't go"..I assured him with a smile in my heart that I wasn't going anywhere. I fed him two bowls of oatmeal and afterwards he says :kay mom lets go cuddle and go back to sleep" I smiled and explained that i was going to get started folding laundry. He says.."ell I want to stay with you, so I said "ok" with excitement in my voice "lets make a comfy bed on the couch and put a movie on". So he got all comfortable and I put on old looney tunes and tom and jerry cartoons..MY FAV. I had so much fun hangin with him ,folding laundry, watching cartoons! anyhow, I had Tavis, Hailey, Noel(a 9 month old I watch) and I all ready and out the door by 8:55. got Tavis to Preschool on time and the girls and I went grocery shopping. our first stop.. Sams Club. I have the business membership so I got to enter before hours and practically had the store to myself. Our first stop was to get a big Dr. pepper and their nummy cinamon pretzels! I bought beautiful spring flowers and the biggest green grapes and red strawberries I've seen in awhile(im snackin onthem now nummy nummy) then we headed on over to walmart where I only had a half hour to get the rest of shopping done..got it done in 17 minutes..there I found the most beautiful bright yellow and pink tulips..had to get them( Im spring sick) but not prego sick ANYMORE!! I think thats why today is so great..I feel normal again no throwing up, no nausea. Seriously Nate had to go grocery shopping for us last time and it was way over due. This time i'm ahead of our 2 week schedule so we actually have food in our fridge! It feels good. I'm also on a spring cleaning mission. I have a HuGe list to accomplish before may comes so I can enjoy and rest my last trimester and summer with my two little ones. I also bought a box of newborn diapers today..(to be prepared) and it got me all excited to have a new little one here soon(well 5 months) It also got me thinking about my life now and how I love it how I'll never get this time back with just my 5 yr old Tavis and 3 yr old Hailey We have a schedule down pack of how we like to live our lives which includes staying up late sleeping in, taking naps, reading books, going on walks, they are my best friends in the whole world and they are both potty trained!! Thats all going to change come July 2010! for the better I know..but it will be different. This year will be a very busy one. Tavis starts Kindergarten Hailey starts Preschool and I start breast feeding ALL over again!! ITs been a while. I've had a nice long break from the baby stage..and as hard as it will be to say goodbye to this time in life Im more than happy to welcome the new one in! But not before I savor the last of this one. Anyhow, off from my tangent there..We all got home ate lunch and I read a new book we bought today to the kids..then all 4 of us..Tavis, Hailey, Noel and I went to sleep. I slept for a couple hours..only cuz I was cravin the strawberries and grapes. Noel woke up a half hour ago..her mom just picked her up and my kids are out cold still..thus the time to blog. I just really like my life today..nothing has changed on the outside of me..same clothes, house, kids, husband, life..but inside im just grateful..and I think thats the key to liking your days..to be grateful for them.

I hope all of our days ahead are full as mine has been today!!


Love one happy Dusti

Ten Years ago....

10 Years ago I attended Hunter High school. I was 18 years old and had the world ahead. Little did I know about the changes that would come in just a few short months. I remember feeling unsure, Unfit, and unmistakably too hard on myself. This year 10 years past I had the heart break of my life. My first love and friend were dating behind my back. As I cried on her shoulder about how hard it was to let him go, she was kissing him! She lied right to my face and all though I was all ready 18 I had never tasted that kind of deceit before. Believe it or bot I still have a bad taste in my mouth. a first Love you never forget along with your first broken heart.

That Year held many many heartaches and changes for me. Graduation was the least on the list. I was never into high school the way some were. I never really enjoyed going to football games and other events..well except the dances..I loved dancing with my girls!! But I was into the people and supporting their dreams and met some of the best people still in my life today in the halls of Hunter High. I use to join in the game of saying "If I could just go back to high school, well I would change everything". Really what I was saying was that I just wanted to change myself and how I handled things like grades , people, and social affairs. However, I've realized that the way I was in high school was the set up for my dream life now and I wouldn't change then because I'm a changed woman now.



Here's to another 10 years....

Love Dusti

choppy chopp to the chinny chin

A 3 year mission...CHOPPED OFF!!! I finally did it...chopped all my hair off.a total of 12 inches. Am I happy? well...its very bitter sweet. I don't want to have short hair I LOVE having long hair I feel a little defeminized right now BUT there are reasons. I want long one length HEALTHY hair. I was avoiding the problem. I had long hair down my back but my layers were all the way up to my chin..why well because my hair was FRIED, dry and just horrible, so I excepted the inevitable that soon I would have hair to my waist but it would be nasty way to layered long hair. So I CHOPPED IT! Now i'm on a new mission to grow my hair out one length and healthy, a mission most people say a hairstylist should not enlist in...but there's no turning back now my hair is up to my chinny chin chin! I'll show pictures some day I just have to get use to it first. two good things about the chop..its much easier to do my hair and I love having healthy hair again even though there's not much left!

A woman who inspires me.....

You have got to check this site out if you haven't all ready, Read her story she is amazing. She appeared on oprah and the Today show this year but THATS not what makes her an inspiration to me. The other day I was about to throw up from my nasty pregnancy nasea..as I sat next to the toilet waiting for it...I thought to myself.." how can I make it through this day? I am so sick and my body is so tired, right as I thought this my kids were tearing up the allready torn up house..I just wanted to cry..then NIE NIE's words filled my heart..everyday is a blessing. I thought "if she can do it..I CERTAINLY can buck up and do it" I thought of her scars and her heartaches..then how grateful she is for it all. any day life comes at you harder than you can stand..read her Blog..she's simply an angeof hope and light..http://nieniedialogues.blogspot.com/


Dusti

oNe......2......tHreE..!

August 2nd 2010 I will officially be a mommy to THREE!!! I am PREGNANT and really feeling it. its amazing how fast your tummy pops out with each child. with Tavis I didn't show till 6 months...this one 6 weeks! I am 7 1/2 weeks prego and just getting over my horrible cold and onto nausea!! YEA! We have been trying for 7 months now and to most people that isn't long but to me it was hard . Tavis was a BIG suprise and Hailey was one period and there she was SO needless to say the wait has made me more grateful for being pregnant... now when i am trying to keep my food down i smile and thank heavenly father for this gift unlike my first two i was not happy at all with the sickness's of pregnancy! so Mckenna it looks like you and i have been in the same boat for the past couple months. i feel your pain. except your hubby's been gone...that would be the hardest I think. allthough Nate is like gone now..He's come down with what i had last week so not much help, but still nice to have around. anyhow, I've had three people tell me they have had dreams that I am having TWINS!! and Hailey keeps telling me that I have 2 babies in me one for her and one for tavis. Monday was my first visit to the doctors..he gave me an ultra sound and ....drum roll please....just one peanut in there..WHEW!! Hailey's not too happy about it but she says she'll be fine as long as it's a girl. I kinda want to wait till we have the baby to find out the sex..we have one of each allready. But Im not a patient person, the end of February I'll get to find out. i'll be happy with whatever..but I'm secretly hoping for a boy!

So SICK and TIRED of being SICK and TIRED...

Oh my goodness!!! I hate coughing..just hate it..i'd rather have the stomach flu...really i'm serious. With the stomach Flu its hell..but only for 24 hours!! coughing...has been hmmm let me see here..Oh i'm going on 12 days of hell now! I haven't been sick like this for 3 or 4 years ...ive been sick but not like this..the coughing keeps me up all night..well thats not true..it keeps the whole house up all night..and its not even a productive cough. All it does is invite its unproductive friends over for a party..soar throat..massive headaches, stuffy nose and they won't leave..i finally gave in and went to the Insta Care yesterday morning because I thought I may have phneomonia... my lungs hurt really bad. Luckily I don't Ive just pulled muscles from coughing so much and so hard.I feel like I've broken a rib. But I got some great antibiotics, and cough syrup that knocks me out..I took it last night and WOW..today my voice kindof sounds like a womans voice again. I feel 50% better and looking forward to kicking the cough and all his friends OUT..soon. it's crazy how bad a simple cold can take you down..I totally understand how it took down the aliens in World of Wars now..its nasty stuff. Tavis is starting to cough now, and my heart breaks for him..I don't want him to go what I have been going through. Isn't it funny how your whole schedule, house, and life can fall apart when the mom of the family gets sick...but not when the Dad get sick? Hmmm I wonder why that is. Im about 6 days over due for grocery shopping and the laundry and cleaning schedule I've been on has gone to the dogs..literally..Max likes to pull random socks out of the laundry pile on my couch and rip them apart! YEA. well, There is one good thing i've gotten out of this experiance..that I am so grateful for health..I've definetly taken her for granted..its nice to have her moving back in soon!!