New Year...Old Hope

I am going to have a new blog Ive just now decided. A blog of just anything and everything. I don't know if you know this about me but I LOVE TO WRITE! Its such a passion and gift I have and yet I only do it in my journal. Another thing about me I'm pretty sure you don't know is that I LOVE TO SHARE! I am not one of those chicas who keeps to themselves..if I find something that works for me..I want it to work for EVERYBODY whether my discovery is a new truth of deepness in life or a new kind of toilet paper that wipes better...I want you to know about it!! So I'm going to combine the two passions this new year to WRITE & SHARE.

I have fears..you want to know them I just know it...here goes...I am scared that I will offend somebody with my philosophies on life, I'm fearful that you will judge me a little and a lot, i am scared to be ME..the real me all the time in every post with no editing involved, I am scared you will not except me, or like my sense of humor and laugh at me instead of with me I am scared that I will use too many exclamation marks!!!!!! I am fearful that you will see the weak side of me...But most of all I am scared to go out of my comfort zone and be vulnerable....


FEAR I am going to crush you this new year.....I want to WRITE&SHARE!! I will not let you accomplish much in discouraging me away from what I REALLY want to do. JUST BE ME!!!


Here's to a new year with old hopes renewed!!!


Love Dusti

Dad...

Oh How I miss you. I saved a voice mail that you left me a year ago. I accidently came across it yesterday..and even though its been all most a month since you've passed...I broke down in tears, knowing that I would never hear your voice again in my life here on earth. Its wierd Dad, Its really odd not to have you there in Missouri. Even though we didn't see each other much because we lived so far apart..atleast you were there. Now you are gone..to a place where I can't call to check up on you, to a place where I can't fly or drive to hug you and rub your bald head! Dad..I miss you. I want to thank you for the tearful visit we had just 2 weeks prior to your departure...I am so happy you got to meet Olivia to play and see her sweet smile. I love you and miss you. But am happy that you won your battle here on earth and are now in Peace..from any temptation or sickness. I love you dad. I miss you.


Until we meet again,
Love daddys girl

Its been awhile....

She is my little chunker..17 pounds all ready!!

Hailey Is my little artist
Tavis is my litte Man..he helps so much!

Wow this 3 kid thing is AWESOME! My life is so full right now I love it! ahh the days of sleeping in and getting ready whenever we want ..are SOOOO GONE! For someone like me who is NOT a schedule person.. AM kindergarten has kicked my booty. But all is well..Olivia is allmost 4 months all ready and I am just about to be able to say that I am somewhat getting on a semi working routine. Before I had Olivia I had this mommy house wife thing down to a tee..my house was beautiful and clean my children were played with and read to and my hubby had a hot wife that ironed his work clothes and made breakfast lunch and dinner!! this has not been the case the past few months! BUT hope is not lost...I have really enjoyed the past 4 months, even though im not super wife/homemaker we all love each other..and I know this is just a time and season and I love it..let me explain why in one word..OLIVIA!! You guys she is sooooooooo so so so a baby every woman prays for. I call her my "nate baby" because she is soo ultra easy going like her daddy. My first 2 take after their mommy..high maitenence. Not Olivia she has been an angel since the day she was born. I put her in her nursery at 3 or 4 weeks..that is crazy for me but she sleeps through the night. Infact I put her down last night at 7PM she woke up this morning at 4 to eat and then slept till 6 and then decided she wanted to play..she is so cute and I just love her so much! Not that I dont love my others sooo much but I did not enjoy their babiness like i have enjoyed Olivias. Lots of factors play into that Im sure but she is just sooo good that it makes it easy to enjoy. I Love having a baby in the house again..its been 4 years since hailey was a little one and I didnt know how much I missed it! The baby lotion, the diapers, the baths, the cooing and smiling..oh I just LOVE IT! This time its fun too because Hailey and Tavis are old enough to enjoy it as well. They LOVE her and its been fun to fall in love with Nate again in that way you do with every baby that comes into your family..you know as you watch your hubby hold and cuddle your little one your heart melts again and again! Olivia is my calm in the chaos of our life. When she wakes up to eat she talks, plays, and laughs..I rarely hear her cry. Im tellin ya..if I was gauranteed 3 more like her..I would do it in a second! Anyhow..life is good and heres some pictures of what we have been up to!

More pictures of my Livvy lu...

Thankyou to the ever so talented Jen Iverson for these pictures..(she took them all in my kitchen) Now that's talent!!!

Its my pleasure to Introduce....

Olivia Jo Murray
July 19th 2010
7 Pounds 7 Ounces
19 and a half Inches


I did it..well we did it.. Olivia and I held out till she was fully baked at 39 weeks!! I love having healthy plump babies!! I went in that Monday afternoon to my unscheduled doctors visit because she had not moved much all day long and that was very unusual for my unborn baby. Because it was unscheduled..i waited for all most 2 hours..well during those 2 hours I started contracting regularly..which I had been doing on and off for 2 months now..so I didn't think much of it in fact i ignored it..too many false calls and trips to Labor and Delivery in the past couple months to add one more to the tally. So there I am thinking about what we are going to have for dinner when I get home when my doctor checks me and says..:"well Dusti you are dialated to a 5 and the reason your baby isnt moving much is because you are in labor"..I looked at him and said with a sarcastic tone to my voice "Real Labor"? He answered me by picking up the phone and calling labor and delivery to let them know I was on my way to be checked in. As I waled out of the doctors office I reached in my purse to get my phone so I could give My Hubby a heads up that Olivia's head was way down and coming out soon! But wouldn't you know it...I left my phone at home..Luckily I was only minutes away and all ready had all the kiddies clothes packed and mine as well. I had Nate drop me off to the hospital so I could check in while he dropped Hailey and Tavis off to my Sistas for the night. My contractions were coming hard now and they hurt. For some reason the nurse couldn't find me in the computer (even though I had just been there 2 weeks prior) and admissions were taking their sweet time...so I sat there in my cute hospital gown unhooked, unmonitored for an hour (its policy that i cant be helped until I'm on the computer) mean while my contractions are getting worse and the moment Nate walked in the room he had to deliver Olivia all by himself.......HAHAHAHA just kidding!! Just Kidding!!!

They finally got me hooked up and my epidural that only worked on one side for awhile, then broke my water. 2 hours later and 2 pushes..Our 3rd child Olivia Jo Murray came into this world! Luckily the epidural kicked in just in time. Time seemed to stop for the three of us. all the nurses and doctors left the delivery room where Nate, Olivia and I had time, peace and bonding working for us now. She wanted to nurse right away and she's a natural at it. (I'm sooo thankful) After that the next few days are a blur, other than I didn't rip or have to get cut so my recovery has been awesome. Now here I sit Blogging on my first day with all three of my angels napping peacefully (for now). I love being a mom, and for some reason with each one it gets better..its all most like you stop worrying about the petty things and stop to enjoy the rare brief moments a newborn brings into your life. I LOVE IT!!!

(pictures courtesy of my oh so talented sista..Mandy!)

My prego pictures! (8 1/2 months)

I loved this stage of pregnancy..I had so much fun with my round belly and loved how much my baby girl moved inside..there's nothing like it!!
Thanks to my sisters constant nagging..and talent of photography..I have these beautiful pictures to remember it by! Thanks Mandy.

all most...30 weeks!!!

I am sooo excited that I am just about to make it to my 30 week mark of my third pregnancy! I know this may seem a weird mark in pregnancy but you see..for some reason my body likes to go into labor before the due time! With Tavis and Hailey I went into Labor between 32 and 34 weeks..I dialate to a 3 quick then my doctor puts me in the hospital for a few days..pumps me up with mag(yuck) gives me shots of tributaline and FINALLY my contractions will stop. Then he sends me home with a bottle of tributaline, puts me on bed rest and my babies both stayed in till 39 weeks!!! THIS TIME..I went in for my monthly check up at 25 weeks and I was all ready thinning with contractions so there Nate and I found ourselves in Labor and delivery (which I hate unless its time to have the baby) I couldn't believe that we were in this situation soo early. My plans of a fun packed summer with my two amigos slowly slipped away. I was heart broken when my doctor put me on semi bed rest..which meant NO MORE SALON. AHHH that is my out. I love doing hair and i didn't want to let my clientele down, I was burdened with guilt that my body wasn't strong enough somehow to live my busy life and stay pregnant....My body hurt at 6 months like it does at 9 months. The next couple weeks were really hard for me..I don't think you realize how much you really do on a day to day basis until you cant anymore. I couldn't believe how much I counted on my healthy body to take care of my home, family and friends. I found myself being on the other end receiving help from family, friends, neighbors, and NATE. This was hard for me..mostly to let Nate take over my domain..our home. I just felt so bad that not only was he out providing for us but now he gets to come home to be the house dad too. And I'll tell you what..I work hard during the day to keep our house clean, stay on budget, take care of our children, do laundry, dishes, floors, bathrooms, grocery shop, etc. Its a full time job that requires allot from your body..not only that but on the weekends he can't rest...I have to..for awhile there I was in bed ALL the time..my body hurt so bad and if I would even get something to eat..I would start to contract!!
Needless to say, I believe that Heavenly Father knows what he is doing. I have learned ALOT through this all, and am so thankful for my body and her ability to do great things..like take care of my family, my husband, my friends, myself. even though I am not up to par right now..I am growing our child in me and Nate has been so specific about that..that I do have a great purpose..even if that has changed for a "season". Never once has Nate complained..not once and this has given me the chance to see him love me in a new light. It has also brought out new friends that have been there for me every step of the way. I am so thankful this rainy May day that I have the life I have. the people that I have chosen to be apart of it, and even the ones I haven't. I've been going in every week now for those wonderful "checkups" and i am actually going backwards! I am now only 10 to 20 percent thinning and feeling much much better. I only have 2 months left. I say only from the positive side of me..I say still from the pregnant part of me. My fingers are crossed that my dear body will stay strong enough and my baby girl can come out fully "baked" and healthy like my first two did!! SO here's to "all most 30 weeks pregnant"! cheers!!