Definetly not Inspired....

I am sooo done with House hunting. I just want to be done!! I don't even care anymore...a little shack off to the side of the road...SOLD!! I just want a home of our own. I want my kids to beable to be a regular 3 and 1 yr old and tear apart their own home. There's nothing like living with family and having your kids draw on the wall, poop on the floor, pee on the carpet, scream resentlessly at 3:20AM in the morning for an hour!! you name it, my kids have done it. which is part of growing up..and shouldn't be a big deal. instead they have to not only deal with 4 grown ups telling them no, they have to feel the constant anxiety of their parents day in and out over things that are just natural for toddlers to do. And not to mention things that Mommy and Daddy wouldn't usually say no to in our own home with our own rules!! I'm not ungrateful for all that our family has sacrificed for us these past 8 months. I'm just done. all those who have been in my situation know exactly what I am talking about. I am so excited to do just regular things in the privacy of my own home like: walking around in my underwear, eating icecream in the living room at 12 am in the morning with the tv on and high. screaming really loud at Nate when I want to. theres nothing like getting in a fight with your husband in fromt of the inlaws. it just doesn't happen, which is ok i guess, but a really good fight means making up...and theres not much of that going on with family upstairs and to both sides of your room that you share with both children!! It's amazing how you live different when others are observing. Oh and I will really enjoy skipping a sunday here and there without feeling like a teeanager again! all of you who think im crazy, I want you to keep track just today of habits, words, eating habits, movies you watch, clothes you wear, activities you do that you wouldn't feel comfortable doing in front of in laws..or just plain anybody else other than your spouse and children. I am so blessed to have amazing In laws, cuz if they weren't I would be insane by now! We have the best Realtor EVER. he has been patiently working with us for a year now. he's helped us make 5 different offers in 5 different cities, and yet not ment to be. I know that heavenly Father is going to lead us to where we need to be. But in the mean time...AHHHH. I think what is....is and it will happen the way it should, I'm just venting.